Oh-Kay, day took a turn for the worse.
Well, not really, it;s still been a rather-dull-but-ok-day. Only i now have a subject to blog about. Yay!
Concerning me and my treatment of friends:
Granted, i may shift from uber-hyperactivity to singleminded coldness before you can finish all three of my names consecutively.
Granted, I may seem/be insensitive and calculating.
Granted, I may seem/be clueless to others' feelings.
I may be a hyperactive, mood-swinging, airhead/kitsune, but honestly, i am no fool.
1) I do not ignore people purposely. If anyone knows me at all, they can say that, yes, Deborah can be focused so that she wont hear anything when she;s reading a book, that she'll be IM-ing and skip over what other people not involved in the immediate conversation are saying without realizing it, she may very well minimized a window and not see it blinking until much later, and she may very well be standing right next to you and not hear you. But, thats just Deborah.
2) I do not try to hurt my friends' feelings. Really, I dont. Please understand that i am prone to make mistakes.
3) Yes, i tend to be oblivious, but where my friends are concerned, i really do try to avoid that and be as aware as possible. I may be MPD, but i am not a telepath. If you dont tell me how you feel, i will more likely than not never realize otherwise. (realize that this is a hypothetical "you" and I am NOT referring to anyone specifically.)
4) my relationships with my friends are between myself and that individual. If you do not approve, understand that you probably do *not* know everything that has occured between myself and the other friend. Understand that any problems will be addressed and dealt with by myself and the other friend *alone*. However, please remember that i do appreciate the concern. I simply do not wish to have a group of friends polarized over an issue that can just as easily be solved between two people. (Once again, all hypothetical "you"s and "friends")
I usually feel fairly certain about my friendships. I have always thought that if one knows that a feeling is there, any additional outward expression is nothing more than reassurance. Apparently, not everyone thinks like that. If i allow people to associate me with another person, i assume that they and the other person both realize that i do consider myself to be a friend. Just because i dont always express an emotion doesnt mean that it isnt there. And if you feel insecure about our friendship status, ask me. I really wont know otherwise. And, i will make an effort to "show" it more openly. But you also have to realize that, if i dont like to display my emotions so much, maybe it makes me uncomfortable. I'm willing to meet anyone halfway, but please consider how i feel about the matter, and ask me if you arent sure.
Apparently, my view of it isnt the common view, so there you have it, a general outline that may be subject to amendment on the whim of the owner.
So, Here is my final *final* ^_^ say.
If I desire to change, that's one thing. Expecting me to change is a different matter altogether.
The question now is whether you will be satisfied with that knowledge or do you want me to tell the entire world how I feel, too.
Well, not really, it;s still been a rather-dull-but-ok-day. Only i now have a subject to blog about. Yay!
Concerning me and my treatment of friends:
Granted, i may shift from uber-hyperactivity to singleminded coldness before you can finish all three of my names consecutively.
Granted, I may seem/be insensitive and calculating.
Granted, I may seem/be clueless to others' feelings.
I may be a hyperactive, mood-swinging, airhead/kitsune, but honestly, i am no fool.
1) I do not ignore people purposely. If anyone knows me at all, they can say that, yes, Deborah can be focused so that she wont hear anything when she;s reading a book, that she'll be IM-ing and skip over what other people not involved in the immediate conversation are saying without realizing it, she may very well minimized a window and not see it blinking until much later, and she may very well be standing right next to you and not hear you. But, thats just Deborah.
2) I do not try to hurt my friends' feelings. Really, I dont. Please understand that i am prone to make mistakes.
3) Yes, i tend to be oblivious, but where my friends are concerned, i really do try to avoid that and be as aware as possible. I may be MPD, but i am not a telepath. If you dont tell me how you feel, i will more likely than not never realize otherwise. (realize that this is a hypothetical "you" and I am NOT referring to anyone specifically.)
4) my relationships with my friends are between myself and that individual. If you do not approve, understand that you probably do *not* know everything that has occured between myself and the other friend. Understand that any problems will be addressed and dealt with by myself and the other friend *alone*. However, please remember that i do appreciate the concern. I simply do not wish to have a group of friends polarized over an issue that can just as easily be solved between two people. (Once again, all hypothetical "you"s and "friends")
I usually feel fairly certain about my friendships. I have always thought that if one knows that a feeling is there, any additional outward expression is nothing more than reassurance. Apparently, not everyone thinks like that. If i allow people to associate me with another person, i assume that they and the other person both realize that i do consider myself to be a friend. Just because i dont always express an emotion doesnt mean that it isnt there. And if you feel insecure about our friendship status, ask me. I really wont know otherwise. And, i will make an effort to "show" it more openly. But you also have to realize that, if i dont like to display my emotions so much, maybe it makes me uncomfortable. I'm willing to meet anyone halfway, but please consider how i feel about the matter, and ask me if you arent sure.
Apparently, my view of it isnt the common view, so there you have it, a general outline that may be subject to amendment on the whim of the owner.
So, Here is my final *final* ^_^ say.
If I desire to change, that's one thing. Expecting me to change is a different matter altogether.
The question now is whether you will be satisfied with that knowledge or do you want me to tell the entire world how I feel, too.
posted by Deborah at 10:45:00 PM
