The Definition of Irrationality

So. I discovered last night that I have a phobia.

Then I jumped off of it five plus times in a row.

Of course, the entire process took thirty minutes or more since every time I climbed up to the diving board, I just stood there for 2-5 minutes trying to remember how to count to three.

The Navy. What was I thinking??

*sigh*

Thankfully, Aitchison and Gray were very patient (though it was wearing thin at the end when they would climb up to jump with me, jump, and I was still glued to the board >_<) and I had happened to bring Korean food, so afterword I gave it as a peace offering.

I'm not particularly afraid of water or heights or that I'll drown in the pool or hit my head or anything... I've never even had any of those falling dreams or anything like that, so that's not it either. It's utterly illogical, which really bugs me, but every time I walk to the edge of the diving board, no matter how often I have already done the jump, I still just freeze.

Swim qual is wednesday morning.

Guess what I'm going to be doing tonight?