I feel as if I'm drifting, in limbo, and have been for a while but only occassionaly and vaguely aware of it, or is this just normal now? I don't know, can't say, haven't a clue how to go about diagnosing me.

I've been feeling out of sorts today, that's true. Elevated heart rate in bursts similar to panic attacks, hollow in the chest when I breathe, occassional vertigo, I guess you'd call it? all of which usually manifest only after long periods with little sleep and medically unhealthy amounts of caffeine, but today... a black coffee, an expresso, and 5 hours of sleep last night - it doesn't add up, so I'm mildly curious and wondering if it has to do with that damned cyst and hoping I don't need another surgery, because in other ways I really really -don't- need a surgery, not here and now.

Well. At least the nervous tic went away. There's something to be said for relief from uncontrollable facial spasms~